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I finally did the dishes today, they had really piled up. I went through all my bills and decided on some cuts so I turned off my home phone and my cell phone. From now on I will only be reached on my work cell. This is a part of my saving money for my goals. I had to pay all the tax I owed the government this month, it was a lot. Three days after my salary my bills and debts are paid but my account is empty so I am on the credit card already. Thank god for VISA and MasterCard.

The challenge of the evening was cooking dinner with the leftovers I have at home. This is not because I am poor (I have credit cards) but rather I was too lazy to go shopping. I made rice, jasmine and basmati mixed and an Asian stew with meat, potatoes, vegetables and oranges, seasoned with cinnamon, ginger, soy and sweet chilli sauce. It was good, luckily!

Tomorrow we are gonna have Ana Lucia’s birthday dinner here at my house, Mum is cooking. That will be loud and fun.

Clothes of the day:

Tight dark blue jeans, silver and grey striped tank top under a crème top with blue, grey and silver leaves on it. Grey \ white hat. My silver pimped out sports jacket. Big silver earrings and grey suede boots. A mustardy yellow handbag.

I was going for look at me I am silver, ghetto fabulous. I think it worked, I got some very unexpected attention.

Weight:

Slightly down from yesterday

Words of the day:

What you won’t do for love?

(Based on a conversation I had with Tamar)

Draw blood?

Hi world

I started the morning with four tubes of blood taken at the doctors, on an empty stomach. I really hope that the doctors can find out what is wrong with me.

I had dance class today, but they are boring me so much. I used to love to dance but now it is just hard my legs feel like logs and I don’t have any adrenalin rush. I think I am gonna stop dancing for a while and see if things get better. The whole situation with my dance teacher is getting to be to much for me so I think I am gonna work out at the gym instead.

Camila and Andreas bought a 300 m2 house, they are really happy by it. I am happy for them even if it’s hard as I don’t want them to move. They are gonna have a great future.

Clothes of the day:

Light blue tight jeans ( very Spain), oversized black top with a ribbon tied on the hips (very 80´s), black hat (Emilia, big big girl), black biker leather jacket (very 2 years ago). Silver earrings (look like pine trees), silver eagle bracelet (Mexico). Black round toed leather boots (kind of cowboy, but not really) Red lip gloss and red nails

I was going for comfortable while showing off my best assets.

Weight:
Why did I go there?????? The answer is up

Words of the day:
What is the point in being sane in a crazy world?

It has been a while

This is Cabo da Roca the most western point in Europe


Hi world!

It has been such a long time since I wrote that I have been feeling guilty. Stupid maybe as I don’t have a large fan base or a fan base at all. Maybe some day!

So what has been going on?

We encountered some serious rain on the way back to the hotel on Friday night


I spent the weekend in Estoril, Portugal. My department had a conference there from Friday to Monday. It was fun as I do work with a crazy bunch as the photos show. We are a great team and there is little internal competition and hardly any badmouthing of one another. I wouldn’t want to work anywhere else. I GOT A RAISE LAST WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was more than welcome as I have three goals to accomplish my adoption, a three bedroom apartment in Östermalm when my baby gets bigger and lipo! As you can see some goals are more important than others, but a girl can dream.
I have some debts that I am working on and I am trying to save money to pay rising interest on my apartment.

Back to Portugal, I bought a lot of clothes as I never buy anything in Sweden as it is soooo expensive here in comparison to Portugal and Spain. My shopping for fall and winter is done.
On Saturday night we went in to Lisbon to the docks, I got to dance to a lot of Brazilian music.

Some seriously large beers in Sintra


Me and the girls (Jen, Sophie and Angelica) came up with a lot of stuff (during long wine diners) to do this fall. We are gonna meet at one of our apartments every first Wednesday of the month for dinner and wine. There you go it is now official and I writing. The first one is next Wednesday at Jenny’s.
We (me, Jen and Angelica) have also decided that we are going to Rio and Salvador for the carnival in February. Jippiiiii!!!!!

I have been to my doctor as well and he is gonna try and find out why I throw up at night, have to eat every 3-4 hours and why I feel so nauseous all the time. I have had this problem since I was 14 years old and I got the funniest advice from doctors like several pregnancy tests?????????? I told them that I would have to be giving birth to Jesus but they insisted on testing me anyway. I was also told to eat a banana lying done until the nausea passes. Try eating a banana lying down when you want to throw up??????????????? I was told it was anxiety attacks in my sleep????????? I gave up! Now I am gonna try again. This time with blood tests and a camera shoved down my throat. Let see where that gets me.

Both Camila and Mum are moving, I really don’t want them to, for me but especially for the future when I adopt my baby. I want them close. Cecy is talking about leaving as soon as she can as well. I am glad some of you don’t have such plans!


Clothes of the day:

Tight light blue jeans, black belt with silver buckle, black t-shirt, black and gold sneakers, black glass gold frame pilot sunglasses!
I was going for tired, overslept, late for work look!!!!!!! I did shower, ha!

Weight: didn’t dare!

Dance class

Hi

I had a five hour dance class yesterday, with Mestre Antonio Cuzido. He is a famous dancer/coreographer from Brasil. He has coreographed all the big groups from Bahia like Ivete Sangallo och Harmonia do Samba. After the class I was so tired that I just watched a movie and went to bed.

My home

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Hi

I have such a crush on my apartment I feal i have to show it the ones of you who haven´t seen it, like Daddy and Marcia. Look the cow is there! Last winter when I was in Brazil we looked for that cow all over the place. Dad was about to shoot a white cow and paint some spots on it. Luckely we found a cowboy shop in Aracaju and dad bought me this cow. I am sad to say that this cow has shead a lot of its hair and i might be looking for a new cow soon.

Good luck Sverker

Why did he have to quit?????? The funniest gas oil trader ever!!!!!!




















Hi

I sang karaoke yesterday! Sverker at my office has quit and everything is pretty quiet at my office now. I am the only one making noise now. Gunnar had organised a dinner at a Japanese restaurant that had a karaoke room. The restaurant, Sakura was great and the singing was even better. It started off with Jenny and Sverker singing Carrie, by Europe. I laughed so hard that my stomach hurt. We all had great fun. Me and Gunnar sang hound dog, cool. We continued off to Bull and Bear inn at Stureplan for some more drinks before heading home to bed.

I am going to Brasil, just got the tickets on my e-mail from Marcia. I am so happy that she came up with the idea of flying us to Brazil for Leticias birthday. Valeu Marcia!

I am looking forward to my trip to Portugal next weekend, jippiiiiiiiiiiii. I have got the whole weekend staked out with partying, shopping and the beach of course.

Brad Pitt is on the TV, he looks so good when he is all roughed up and dirty. He looks like a younger Benicio Del Toro. I just saw Idol on the TV there are some really good singers this year. I have gotta get me a favourite as I am not going out at all lately, TV and samba is basically what I do, well and travel I guess. I am not complaining it’s just different not going clubbing like I used to. I don’t miss it its just different.

A BAD DAY

Hi

I had a terrible day today, everything I touched went wrong. I did the same report at work 5 times. I felt nausea all day and all through the dance class. Tomorrow I will be great or I will get sick. Make or break!

Yesterday evening after work I went over to Nille and Kamilya for dinner. It was great fun. Me and Kamylia talked so much that I think Nille didn’t even have a chance to say anything. They are so happy, and are such an obvious couple. It is a pity that they are moving soon it is nice to have them just around the corner. They are gonna move to a new apartment in Kransen, I am just waiting for the house warming party, will be an interesting crowd.

Viva Brasil has a new dance teacher here from Bahia, he is very spiritual, talks about the spirituality of dance, god and the rhythm in the body and so on. He is a great dancer though.

Stayed at home on a Saturday night

I stayed home alone last night!!!!!!!!!!!!! That is really surprising; I can’t remember staying home alone a Saturday night without being sick for the last ten years. I was just so tired I had a two and a half hour dance class and I taught a class to a hen party. Sophie and Angelica invited me to dinner but I just couldn’t get out of the sofa.

Today I spent the day downtown with Angelica and Sophie; we sat in Kungsträdgården and drank some cider, it really felt more like spring than fall.

Jen turned 30 today, I have no idea what to get her.

By the way Angelica is the proud winner of the competition we started in Palma! Congrads!

Show!

Make up done for the show!





















My costume spread out on the floor


















Hi!


I am going to Brazil, jippppiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!

Yesterday we managed to book some tickets to Brazil using dad’s miles. Perfect! Me and Jase are gonna be there for 10 days. Beaches, the party and shopping and of course spending all the time with my family down there. I think it is gonna be great! I am gonna buy a lot of training clothes as they are great at lycra in Brazil.

I danced at Bar Brasil yesterday. It was a Brazilian party celebrating the Independence Day. The show went really well. It was me Maristella and Viviane. After the show we messed around in the dressing room pretending we were cowgirls. Hahahah.


Cowgirl Viviane



























Cowgirl Angela






























Cowgirl Maristella

Off to Brazil

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The craziest thing happened to me today! After I got out of my dance class at around seven o’clock I saw that I had 9 missed calls from Brazil. I got real scared and thought that something bad had happened. Luckily nothing bad had happened, much to the contrary my Dad and Marcia want to fly me and Jason to Brazil for Leticia’s birthday party in November. We are gonna try and use Dads miles to fly us over. I spoke to Jase and he is gonna see how his schedule is in November.

I really want to go!!!!!!!!!

My Day and Dream

I tried sats dance today, hmmm, the verdict. I don’t know. It was strange, an extreme variety in music and a leader without rhythm. Well I got all sweaty anyway. That is the point isn’t it? Maybe even burned off a bit of the Pizza from the other day = )

I spoke to Tamar (mamacita), she is so happy; I can really tell that motherhood is her thing. We have decided that when she comes over to Sweden we are gonna go out without the baby or the husband for old times sake. That’ll be fun!

It seems that my ideas about adoption have started a lot of conversation around me. Just the other day I had I message on my cell from I girl I hardly know to call her because she had heard that I was planning on adopting. ???????? strange!

Just to clarify some things I do intend to adopt a child, given that my life doesn’t change drastically in the next year. However an adoption takes a lot of time especially for a single woman. So I will not have a baby any time soon.
I don’t want to get pregnant and have a baby. I see pregnancy as love. Love between a man and a woman having a child together and wanting it. Without that love I don’t see the point in carrying a child when there are so many children in the world that need a home, family and love.

If I am lucky I might just have it all, my adopted baby, a man I love and his child!

Nakupenda Juliet and her unborn child

Juliet Kavinga was murdered last May when she was carrying a seven month old baby. I knew her; she was funny, happy and spoke English with a clicking sound that she makes in her own language. We used to sit together for hours as she braided my hair. She used to tell me stories about her life in Africa and we laughed a lot.

I was sitting in my sofa when I saw her face on the TV. Murdered, pregnant and dumped into a lake, she had been dead for over a year. Her friends say that she was proud of her pregnancy and flaunted it. Happy and in love! Now the father of the unborn child is arrested. He initially admitted to being the father, and then denied it. Now DNA tests have shown that he is the father.

Juliets friends in Sweden started to gather money to send her and her baby to be buried in Kenya. If more money than necessary is gathered for the transport the money will go to build Juliet’s mother a house.

I hope Juliet suffered as little as possible and that she is with her baby, where ever they may be!

If anybody wants to give the foundation some money here are the details.

Nakupenda Juliet and her unborn child!
Bankgiro: 5942-7807

Nakupenda means love!

Pizza hut, oops! OK my diet starts tomorrow!

I had dinner at Pizza Hut this evening. Definitely breaking every diet I ever tried to maintain. What has happenend to Pizza Hut, they have kebab pizza???? and a lot of new stuff that really doesn´t go together with the franchise idea. Weird!

I was with Camila of course based on the restaurant choice, who else could it be! Me and Camila used to eat at Pizza Hut when we were in College. We would just sit there for ages and talk about everything, our friends, family and guys of course. Girls really do tell each other everything!

It has been a long time since we have spent time alone , just hanging out and it is nice to know that little has changed. It felt like old times. By the way Camila bought a great fall coat at Zara! She got at half price as well, by mistake I think!

I am going to stop eaten out from tomorrow, ha ha i have to because I am out of food coupons.

Me and Camila

The weekend is over

The weekend is over! It was a real quiet one. Yesterday Ana Lucia came to my samba class and she loved it so she is gonna start dancing with us every Saturday. That is great because she really needs to get out more. She told me that she needs to do more for herself, I couldn’t agree more.

We came over to my house and drank some wine while I got ready for Katya`s birthday party. Her party was out in Sollentuna that was not that great as I hate taking that train out there I only go there when driven. Weird, but I have issues = )

After the dinner at Katya`s 10 of us went into town and ended up at Soap Bar. That didn’t go down great. One of the girls got into a girl fight???????????? Honestly when does that ever happen. I just looked away and kept dancing. That kind of stuff is so unnecessary. I was not really up to going out so I went home around 01 00.

Today I met up with Camila and ate in Faltis, my cousin Hannah came over to pick up some jeans I had for her. We ended up hanging out all day, talking and watching TV. Cecy came by with little Alfred, he is soooooo cute! Later Jase came by as well. We all watched One Tree Hill, the best.

I talked to Pontus today and he is finally feeling better, I am glad, it must have been some hell weeks for him. He told me to write that people should lock up their daughters because Pontus is back! I said that he is too old and that people should lock up their wives, girlfriends and sisters.

All in all it was good to have a calm weekend!

Weekend again

Hi

The weekend is here again. Time really passes quickly sometimes. I had a great time at work today and laughed a lot as usual. Angelica has decided to stop both smoking and snuff as well, meaning that she will be in a shitty mood for a long time. It must be a bitch trying to quit smoking because people act so strangely when they attempt it. My only addiction is food, food for fun, for boredom, for sadness, for socialising. Luckily I will never have to quit food, I couldn’t make it.

Camila and Andreas have sold there apartment and made one million in profit. Congratulations. I was just out for dinner with them at Hollywood. It was nice I really enjoy there company. I ate chicken lasagne, it tasted ok but they had nuked it so parts of it were hard as hell, uneatable! I was so hungry that I didn’t even complain and just ate what I could.

By the way, I saw a guy I used to see at clubs 2 mornings in a row. He is so good looking that seeing him every morning makes my day. I am gonna be sooooooo disappointed if I don’t see him on Monday!

Good night